People I want to Punch in the Face

I work in a shop. Sometimes you get the kind of customers who stroll in a few minutes before closing, saying they're aware what time it is, but they're only going to get a few things. But no matter their words, they go around the shop without any hurry and don't seem to care that the people working would like to go home.
They are so inconsiderate. Are we not human too? Don't we deserve our few precious hours of free time? Yeah sure! We live only to serve you! Why should you care about our plans or our time?

Got so mad today because of a customer like that, and that feeling lasted for quite a while after I got home. Now I only feel depressed. I'm so tired of being annoyed. Of feeling worried. Of being disappointed with life. Why can't life be shiny, Capt'n?

Hungry Soul

Today I got the feeling of hunger back, after going days without it. Not to worry, I did eat in its absence. I am, after all, one who nags on people for not eating.
I just realized something though. I haven't been feeding my soul for the last couple of years. I haven't been doing anything creative. I haven't done any discoveries. I've been travelling to escape and to shop. My soul is starving.

Move your body

It's sad how rarely I use my blog these days. Been almost a year since last time I wrote something. And I miss it often.

Yesterday I bought a membership at the gym. Finally! Me and Pernilla went to a Core class, and it wasn't as awful as I had imagined. I even had fun and liked it. New life, here I come!

Bliss

Don't you just love a day off, when you don't have any plans and can do whatever you choose to do? Especially after three days of headaches due to three nights of bad sleep (and also probably my body telling me to shape up and eat healthier). A free day is pure bliss!
After getting a good night's sleep ('til 10, gosh!) I've been busy watching tv shows, setting up shelves in my bookcase, filling up said bookcase with tomes and movies (I need more books), cooking and even doing a bit of household work. It feels sooo good.

The day that would never end

Tired. Aching back. Too many customers. Not enough staff. Never a good combination. The one positive thing is that my back doesn't ache as much as it did at the beginning of the day. Hooray!

Be my friend

Sometimes you get a customer who just radiates positive energy and infects you with her happy attitude. Those times I feel like exclaiming "Let's be friends!". If only it was that simple to make new friends. Most people would probably think you're strange and walk away. And I wouldn't blame them! 

While I was studying in Japan I used to frequent a Starbucks during breaks and after class. I actually asked a girl working there if she would like to be friends. But we had met a few times already and she had commented on my Linkin Park pin attached to my bag since she was also a fan of them. Turned out she didn't live that far from me, so we ended up having coffee (or rather, sticky rice cakes and tea) in her neighbourhood. We emailed each other for a while after that, but that didn't last long unfortunately. I'm still a little disappointed that it didn't turn into a lasting friendship.

A long time ago, we used to be friends?

You forgot my birthday. It wasn't the first time, and it wasn't unexpected. I wouldn't really mind if it was just a missed birthday greeting, if you could just try to keep in touch. No calls. No emails. No messages on my phone asking a simple "what's up?". How long must I be the one to reach out? How long should I bother?

It just makes me sad. I miss my friend.


Sewer Walking

You and me, we used to talk
Like a river underground,
the sewer where we used to walk.
The hole at the end empties out to the pier
Where paper boats disappear

Me, I try to send this note,
Float it like a paper boat,
But paper sinks and words are weak.
I try but I don’t speak

Join together in the silent snow
Turn our faces up to see
Not endless night but day,
A pier,
And you and me, talking.


Grace's poem, from Joan of Arcadia